Why do people want? (whatever they want)
Whenever I have wanted something ( to or not to) I had been sure of it. Irrespective of later consequences. In hindsight many decisions I took did seem to be not so result bearing but given another chance of time travel I would repeat my mistakes. Why? because I actually wanted that.
continuing with the " See'ing it through eyes without glasses and heart without..."
Exhibit I.
When I was 5-6 years old, I wanted a cricket bat. I dont remember if I made any scenes about it at that time or not and whether I deserved/needed it or not. All I remember today that my grandfather bought one plastic bat and a ball even as there was curfew in the town that day.
Exhibit II.
I am in 6/7 th Std. Not really an innocent boy who doesnt know whats right and whats not. Smart enough to travel in bombay's local buses alone for daily school commuting. Yet strangely I shoplifted a 50p worth WWF postcard. The act was not a result of lack of finances but rather something which I "wanted" to do and see how it feels. Repeated the act 3-4 times untill got caught.
Exhibit III.
I am at Nice, a south of france city. I wanted to take a dip in the mediterranian sea. Even as I got late in sleeping past 1 a.m for sure and had early morning train 6-7 a.m to catch and did not have proper swim wear with me I set an alarm for 4 a..m and got up and went to the beach which was about 10 mins jog away and fulfilled my "want".
These are the easy ones... where one knows what he wants. which thankfully I always had.
The trouble comes when you dont know what you want. Unfortunately thats exactly what I am experiencing now. If I find a solution to it will surely share.
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Dude, you have the capability of achieving/doing/getting what you want and so its no surprise that you managed it thus far. The problem with you now is you know what you want but also know its very difficult to get and not entirely in your hands. So the want is still there but you don't know how to get it; as a result of which you are rethinking whether you really want it.
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